Hey guys I know I haven't made a card in a while, I've been going through a lot. Depression had hit me real hard these past months, but anyways. I am planning on biting tickets for the got7 concert in LA, but I might end up going alone. Now it may not be a big deal to most people, but I have crippling anxiety and a huge fear of being alone. That being said I was wondering if there was anyone who would be willing to meet me there, or if I could just tag along with someone. My plan was to get the group photo ticket or the hi-touch nor sure yet, but I just don't want to be alone....it Really scares me..
on another note,about the fic I was writing, I'm sorry I haven't updated. life had pretty much had me down a lot. I have horrible mother problems, and that made a lot more family problems. my great grandma passed away, and I couldn't even go to her funeral. past couple nights I wake up crying. I tried to solve my problems with drinking, and that didn't help. I don't talk to anyone, and I have no friends of my own. so I've been going through this pretty much alone. I have my bf but sometimes I don't think he really understands. so I really just hadn't felt like writing anything pretty much. my chest hurts almost all the time. I can't control my own tears anymore, to be honest the only time I smile is when listening to music, or when I'm drinking. I know "mom problems" doesn't sound bad, but it's really bad. and then I see that other people on here have health problems and it made me feel like shit for even feeling sad. I contemplated suicide a lot this month. I sometimes still think about it. i should stop I don't want you to feel sorry for me, I just wanted you to know I haven't forgotten my previous obligations. I got way too much into detail, and it's probably going to seem like a cry for attention I'm sorry. don't ridicule me please I'm truly sorry.