I’m gonna park the car,Just text me the room number when you get there, okI guess you got the shot. What’d he sayHe saidNamjoon, what did the doctor say? I don’t trust Rose at all to tell me the truth about her treatmentDon’t worry about Rose, she won’t get mad at youRight Rose? So just shake or nod your head. Did he say for her to spend the nightRest for a weekAnd did Rose make some ridiculous excuses about why she could do neitherThat’s exactly what I figured. Same thing every timeYou forgot to mention that if it keeps happening, you could have irreversible damage and may even end up being unable to walk without support or even at all.
I’ll walk them out
“Get better, noona. If you need anything, just ask.” Rose didn’t move. Hoseok sighed and left. The younger boys were already out of the room. Yoongi brushed his hand along the sheets and walked out.
“They know you care about them. They just—they don’t understand. I know you didn’t mean it like that and they know it too...” In her reflection in the window, I could swear I saw a tear slip out. “I’ll text you later.” I left and Nina followed. The other guys had walked ahead to an empty waiting room. I started jogging towards them when I saw Jin holding Yoongi back while Yoongi was yelling at the maknaes. Hoseok stood between all of them.
“What’s going on?” I demanded.
“Hyung’s mad at us for making his girlfriend mad.” Jimin yelled at Yoongi. Yoongi tried to push past Jin who stood firm.
“Knock it off,” Hoseok yelled at Jimin.
“All of you stop.” I said forcefully. “Yoongi, don’t get mad at them. They don’t understand.”
“Understand what? That noona doesn’t trust us? That she thinks we’re jerks?” Taehyung interjected. A few tears had made their way down Jungkook’s cheeks.
Namjoon, you can translate for meThere’s something that... a lot of things have happened to Rose. I can’t tell you very much. It’s not my place. Rose will do it when she’s ready. But for now, I want you to know that—the thing that happened. She was hurt really badly. There was a large probability that she was going to die, and from what I heard, when they found her, she technically was dead for a few minutes
I can’t say everything that happened, but the knee injuries were part of it. She was a track and field runner before and because of...it, she had to quit. It took her a long time to get where she is now. She had to give up a lot because of what happened and how bad she was hurt. After everything, she understandably became depressed. She stopped doing anything for a while. Her parents managed to convince her to start getting back to her life before the accident. She had been 15 and about to graduate high school. She had multiple scholarships offered at several schools for her athletics, academics, and a couple other things
Yes, she’s really smartThough obviously not all the time. But anyhow, she was homeschooled before and, after dropping out for a while, she resumed her homeschooling. She graduated and went to college, though she had lost her scholarship offers
At this time, she was still depressed, but she was slowly getting better. Now, I hadn’t met her yet, but I talked to her family and friends she had then and Rose told me some. So, I may not know everything, but I know enough that I can tell you that she met a really horrible person. Angie. Angie was good at hiding what kind of person she was until it was too late. Angie used Rose’s incident and manipulated Rose into depending entirely on her for getting out of her depression. I guess Angie fooled everyone at first, but eventually, people started getting suspicious of her
In order to keep the truth from Rose, Angie managed to manipulate Rose to one-by-one cut off contact with all her friends. Rose said she was a master manipulator. That even when everything was revealed, she still couldn’t believe it for a long time. But Angie took advantage of Rose and even used her identity to get involved in illegal activities. Long story short, Angie was caught, Rose was devastated, and everything that Rose had worked towards was completely destroyed.
She met Julie before she met me. Julie said it took Rose almost a year and a half to finally open up and tell her everything. I met Rose after Julie left for Korea, about four years ago. It took Rose almost a year to tell me everything. And trust me, she was the same with Julie and me and said a lot of the same things to us that she just did to you guys. Worse, too. Just... I can’t ask you to forgive her, but at least understand where she’s coming from. And don’t get me wrong, I’m not excusing the things she just said...but I do want you to understand
She’s strong...but she’s also fragile. And afraid more than anything. She hides it pretty well, but she’s afraid. Afraid that something will happen to her again, that she’ll be betrayed...that she’ll let people down. She’s already let you guys in so much it took me completely by surprise. She’s closer to you guys than she is to any of the other people she works with. And I think this makes her afraid. She’s so happy that she’s afraid it’ll be taken away again. She’s afraid that you’ll betray her, that you’ll hate her, that you’ll judge her or pity her. That’s all it is. Fear. I think in her heart she knows that you wouldn’t do that, but her brain is still stuck on what happened in the past. And she can’t help it. I won’t ask you to—
“Can we go back?” The younger ones asked, interrupting me mid-sentence. They were crying and I could tell they regretted what they said back in the room and I probably looked like the hyungs, about to cry.
First of all, she’ll kill me for telling you. Second of all, she’ll probably refuse to talk to you guys again. She’s that afraid. Just...give her time. Message her tonight to let her know how you feel. Just don’t tell her you know, don’t even let her suspect it. Maybe after some time passes, if things go back to normal, you’ll be able to let her have hints that you know. Then maybe she’ll feel more like you’re not judging her. You know what I meanThank you Namjoon for translating for me. I guess I should really study my Korean so I don’t have to keep asking you to do that
No, it’s no problem. I understand. And don’t worry, we won’t get you in trouble
As they walked out to the car, Jungkook, Taehyung, and Jimin were talking amongst themselves about what to do with the new information.
JK- “I feel bad about what happened in the room.”
T- “We didn’t know.”
JM- “Even if we did… I probably would’ve said it differently, but what she said was uncalled for either way.”
T- “But if we knew, we could’ve reacted differently.”
JM- “Yeah, I feel bad about it.”
JK- “And I feel bad about what happened to her. I’ve never wanted to hit a girl before, but that Angie girl...”
JM- “OOooo, maknae. Dangerous!” They all laughed. “But I know the feeling.”
T- “Me too. I wanna make it to where she never worries about someone like that again. We’ll protect her.” The other two nodded in agreement.
Hoseok was lost in his own thoughts. He thought about the nightmares Rose always had. The nightmares and the ‘incident’ were definitely related. The fact that Namjoon had translated ‘incident’ and not ‘accident’ and that Rose herself had said ‘incident’ hadn’t slipped past him. Whatever had happened to her wasn’t an accident and it had to have been quite traumatic for it to plague her dreams so badly. And knowing what she had gone through afterwards and the things she had lost made him want to protect her more. At the same time, he felt proud of her. Everything she had gone through and here she was. It was obvious that she’d have trust issues, but aside from that, she was functioning extremely well for someone who had been through what she had been through. He didn’t know if he could do that well. Hoseok immediately sent a text saying “You can’t scare me away that easily. I’ll still be here if you need me. Anytime.”
Yoongi, on the other hand, was not doing well. He felt sick to his stomach. He was angry at the younger boys for jumping down Rose’s throat. Not that he didn’t understand why they did it, but it pissed him off that they hadn’t been able to see what she had been doing. But now he understood Rose better. Why she had her nightmares (whatever the ‘incident’ may be), why she was so hesitant to get close to them when she first met them, why she always tried to keep busy, and why, even though he had thought all of them were pretty close, she had kept her walls up. She’s afraid we’ll judge her for her past.
Yoongi thought about what she must’ve gone through and it made him sick to think of her in so much pain, her losing everything and being depressed, her being manipulated and betrayed... Yoongi didn’t notice, but Namjoon kept looking at him worriedly. Yoongi was much more pale than usual and it scared Namjoon. It scared him that Yoongi had reacted so severely to the news. Namjoon figured that Yoongi must truly care about her, maybe even love her, for him to react like that. And Namjoon didn’t know if he could compete with that. Of course, Namjoon cared about Rose went through and it hit him pretty hard. But for Yoongi...it was much worse.
So there's the chapter. I know it's a bit depressing, but I wanted readers to better understand Rose. For now, here is one piece of the puzzle. And poor Yoongi... Also, while I am not an expert in psychology, I did major in the subject and can assure you that Rose's type of defensiveness is a very natural reaction to trauma as well as an unfortunate proclivity towards being taken advantage of with the right circumstances. Thank you all for reading my story and this chapter. I hope is was enjoyable. Thank you to everyone reading, liking, commenting, clipping, and following. Please don't hesitate to ask questions or comment. Constructive criticism is always welcome. Let me know if you would like to be tagged in future chapters. I hope you will continue to enjoy my story and I hope to see you next chapter!!! Side note, I'm going to start writing a new story pretty soon. It looks like it will be a Hoseok and Jimin lead love interest. All the credit belongs to@Mavis2478 for giving me the story line. I hope it will not disappoint. And thank you to those who are already encouraging me beforehand. Those who I have tagged, please let me know if you would like to continue to be tagged in this next story. Forewarning, it probably won't be for a while since I don't like to post my chapters before I finish the whole story.