okay, i have two more to go, and that is RM and out golden maknae. I have an idea for RapMon but I'm stuck on Kookie... but hopefully you like this one. It's a bit different. and i did have this wriiten off from another fanfic I did, but I changed all the characters to BTS members...(It was from a non-kpop fanfic)
without further ado.....
Main: Mattie Park x Kim Taehyung
Ft: BTS, EXO
Summary: Have you ever danced on the edge? Let alone jumped?
***SELF HARM WARNING***
"I CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS!!!!" I yelled into an empty house, "That's right I'm home alone...again." I walked over to the cabinet and realized that Hyuna left a bottle of Jack and vodka in the cupboard, "Oh the joys of living with my best friend, I always get left but at least she left some alcohol." I said talking to myself,
She has been gone for a month, and isn't coming back until next month. Chanyeol calls once in awhile to check up on me, we always talked about random stuff, being my brother must be hard for him, it isn't easy having a adopted sister that's a foreigner.
I went to my room, and started playing my music, and started drinking, letting the whiskey burn my throat, I didn't feel so happy anymore, I just wanted to end, even being out of high school and into University was hard, I was still getting the same hate messages "No one loves you" or “go back to where you came from” and of course "Your boyfriend will find someone better" little did they know, he had found someone better… I just hated it, the two years we were together meant nothing to him. I took another swig, but of the vodka this time my own brother doesn't even know that he's been cheating on me for the last three months.
I got up and reached under my desk and found the taped up razor, I haven't done it in a couple years, but my wrist ached and burned to be cut, I looked at my old friend, and looked at my wrist, "No, I can't" I whispered to myself.
I went to my bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror, I hated my reflection.
My phone went off, great another picture message from the boys, I looked at it and it was Chanyeol and Him, there were some girl snuggled up to him, I knew it was that girl, the one that he's been seeing. I threw my phone at the mirror, "Shit" I said to myself and seen the broken glass in the sink, "Great" I said again drinking from the Jack bottle I took a picture of the bottle and sent it to Chanyeol, also a text
Hey party at my place too...if i had anyone."
As expected no reply back I just shrugged as a sat on the floor, I kept drinking that night, another text,
UnknownWhy are you even still alive? Your boyfriend is going to find someone way better than you, just do it already, no one will notice
I smiled, maybe I should. I grabbed my razor and dug deep,
I just seen red going down my arms, I sat there thinking about how easy this was, but will I regret it. I notice my phone ringing it was Namjoon I answered it
"Heyyyy It's Joonie~" I slurred while giggling,
“Are you that drunk! How much did you drink?" I looked at the bottle
"Uh, almost half way thru the Vodka, but drink all the Jack" I said slurring the words and I giggled again.
"You better get some sleep, Why are you drinking?" He asked.
“Because no one cares" I said
“I care about you, I'm sure Tae does too.” I scoffed and faked a laugh.
“Why the laugh?” He asked
“Namjoon, he's been cheating on me for the past three months, I doubt he cares about me.” I said,
“What the fuck!? You're just now telling me?” He said.
“Tae doesn't know that I found out.” I said, I looked down and notice the blood not stopping, I'm starting feeling like i'm going to pass out, "Joonie, you're my best friend, I love you." I said to him and hung up.
I hurried and dialed my other best friend.
“Chim, I need help" I said into the phone
"Are you drunk?" He asked
"Yes, and I did something really stupid" I said slurring,
"Shit! stay on the phone with me okay I'm on my way.” He said into the phone.
“Okay, hurry.." I said.
I felt like I couldn't breathe, it felt like I was waiting forever when I heard Jimin's voice "Mattie!" I heard him rush up and found me in the bathroom "Damn it Mat." He said taking a towel to stop the bleeding, “I'm taking you to the hospital.” He said sternly, with that I nodded and passed out.
I woke up with a huge headache, and a pain on my arm, I looked to see Jimin sitting in a chair across the room.
“Hey” I said sitting up.
“Hey, your awake.” He said I nodded
“I'm sorry Jimin.” I said he shook his head.
“No, don't be, I found out about Tae, I was so pissed I walked out of the party, when you called.” He said.
“So now you know he's been cheating on me.” I replied. I sighed and heard my phone go off.
“Chanyeol has been calling, better call him back.” He said I nodded and grabbed my phone from Jimin.
“Hello?” I answered
“WHERE ARE YOU?? I went to the apartment to bring you some food and I found blood all over the floor!” He yelled “I thought you were over this Mattie?” He said sounded as if he was crying.
“I'm in the hospital, Jimin brought me here.” I said looking at my best friend.
“I'm on my way over, I'll let Tae know.” He said, but before I could protest he already hung up.
“Great.” I said.
“What?” Jimin said as he sat on the chair next to my bed.
“He's letting Taehyung know I'm here.” I said.
An hour went by and Chanyeol came walking in. His big smile went away as he seen me.
“Mattie, I swear if I ever lost you” he said coming up to hug me. Part of me felt happy, another part of felt that he would be relieved that I wasn't here.
“Oppa, you didn't tell Tae I was here did you?” I asked. He nodded
“He said he'll be here soon.” He answered.
“Oppa there's something I need to tell you.” I said “Tae has been- Jagi!?” I heard his voice as I looked at the door.
“What happened? Are you okay?” I looked at him and to Jimin I can see anger building up.
“It was just an accident, nothing too bad.” I said to him. He nodded and sat on my bed, he tried to cheer me up, all I could give him were fake smiles and laughs. Why did he need to smile like that though…
“Is there a relative of Mattie here?” A doctor said walking in.
“I'm her older brother.” Chanyeol said standing up.
“If you two aren't family then I'll need you guys to step out.” He said towards Jimin and Taehyung.
“I'm her boyfriend does that count?” Tae said I looked at him confused. Since when did he care?
“I'm sorry but no.” The doctor said as Tae nodded and followed Jimin out the door.
“So Mattie we'll have to keep you here for monitoring for about three days.” He said me and Chan nodded as he grabbed my hand. He explained how my drinking and self harm was just a minor accident, but still needed to be looked over.
“I'll leave you to it, a nurse will be in shortly to check your vitals.” He finished.
“What were you going to say earlier sis?” Chan asked.
“Nothing, it's not really important right now.” I said to him he nodded. “Can you tell Jimin to come back in.” I asked he nodded and walked out.
“Hey Mat I have class in an hour, but as soon as it's done I'll be back over with food.” Chan said walking over to kiss my head.
“Jimin, is Tae still here?” I asked.
“No… he had an “emergency” and had to leave.” Jimin said rolling his eyes, “Namjoon and Hoseok are gonna come over.” He said sitting next to me to watch tv.
Days dragged on, soon I was getting discharged, with Hoseok and Jimin driving me home. Tae hasn't came to see me at all since I was there “too busy” with classes.
“Just break up with him, I mean you know he's been cheating on you.” Jimin said helping you into the apartment. I nodded.
“It's not easy Jimin, I loved him, we had two years together, it's hard to throw it away, but if He was able too than I guess I should too.” I said sitting on my couch. Jimin sat next to me and let me put my head on his shoulder.